Taking a Break

praying-29965_640Hello friends. I’ve been praying for guidance for topics to write for my blog. I have a block and feel God is telling me to take a break. In the meantime, please pray for direction for me. Also, email me ideas at jannwmartin@gmail.com for topics you would like me to research for you.

Some possible topics: Kids activities, Burned out Moms: Ways to Relax, Let Go and Let God of Your Kids

God Bless.

Surprise Pregnancy

Last week I told you of a time when my faith had really been tested. I was facing surgery and was afraid I had cancer. God blessed us and all I had was endometriosis a scaring in the uterus, causing pain and making it difficult to get pregnant.

We felt blessed to have our daughter April. She was about two when all of this was going on. Through other appointments I had and some tests that Jim went through we found out that it was a miracle that we were able to have April. So life went on and we didn’t think about having another baby.

Jim was laid off again from Great Lakes Steel near Detroit, this time he wasn’t sure he was going to be able to go back. He had a license as a mortician, but was able to get better pay at the steel mill so he went to work there. He checked the area for a position at a funeral home but, no one was hiring locally. Through some searching he found a position in Beulah, North Dakota. We sold the house in Redford, Michigan, packed everything up and moved west.

We found an efficiency apartment to rent when we first arrived. It was very tiny, for the two of us, April, now five, and our medium sized dog. All was going smoothly so we began to look for a home. There was a new development going in and we found a lot and model home that we liked. We were talking with the builder at a party on Friday night and made plans to meet with him Monday morning to get things started.

Saturday while Jim was at work he and his boss were having coffee and talking. There is a large Black Foot Indian tribe out there. The boss was complaining about the tribe. Jim said in his usual off hand manor, “Watch it I’m part Black Foot.”

The next day, he was let go. We called the builder and told him we weren’t able to bu
y the house we wanted. In the mail that day we received a letter forwarded from Michigan for an interview for a position in a funeral home back near Detroit. He went for the interview and accepted a new job. We packed up again and moved to Jackson, Michigan. We found an apartment and once all seemed good we bought a home.

My sister came out for a visit and lunch on a Friday. While we were visiting, she looked quizzically at me and asked me if I was pregnant. I told her I was late having my period again, but that wasn’t unusual with having endometriosis. I called the doctor the following Monday morning and the nurse said to come to the office that morning and she would draw blood and run the pregnancy test. So, April and I went to the opregnant-1126635_640ffice. The nurse said to come back in a couple of hours and she would be able to give me the results.

April and I went to Meijer and just walked around killing time. We happened to go by the toy area and I saw a stuffed bunny. Just for fun I bought it. Then we went back to the office for the results. The nurse saw me and came out in the lobby to give me the results. She said, “You’re pregnant.” I began to cry and she rushed April and I into an exam room. “Are you, okay?”

I replied, “I’m just so happy. We have been wanting another child for six years.”

She gave me a hug. And sent us on our way. April and I then went to the funeral home to tell Jim. When we got there he was in a back area and the receptionist said she would call and have him come up front. We saw him coming down the hall, so we walked back to meet him. I handed him the bag from Meijer with the bunny and said it died. He gave me a funny look and opened the bag. Then he smiled and gave me a big hug.

April looked confused. “Why did you say it died?”

I laughed and said, “I was just teasing Daddy.”

She still didn’t understand, and was too young to explain that the old way many years ago to find out if a woman was pregnant was to inject a female bunny with a woman’s urine. There would be a change in the bunny’s ovaries if the woman was pregnant. It was a misconception that was believed that the bunny died if the woman was pregnant.

So God, blessed us with a surprise pregnancy, and another daughter, Nickie. They are seven years apart. We are truly blessed to have two beautiful daughters.

How has God surprised you. Share it on the blog at www.jannwmartin.com or email me at jannwmartin@gmail.com

How Strong is Your Faith?

I found this quote from, C.H. Spurgeon: To trust God in the light is nothing, but trust Him in the dark that is faith.

 

When you feel good, your relationship is going well with your husband and kids, the grandkids are cute and adorable it’s easy to have faith in God. You wake up, have breakfast, and then go do your workout, it’s a great start to the day. Then you begin with the chores and meal planning. You can have days, weeks, even months go by and everything goes smoothly. God is Good, and your faith is strong.

 

Then life hits you smack in the face. One of those moments for me was in the late 1970’s. I had been having a lot of abdomen pain and irregular periods. This had gone on for a couple of years. I had seen the doctor about it, and we were also trying to have a second child, that wasn’t working either. My doctor told me he would have to do exploratory surgery to see if he could help relieve the pain and help me to be able to get pregnant.

At first I was okay with this. Then fear started to encroach on my thoughts and feelings. I was becoming more and more nervous as the surgery date got closer. I talked with my husband, family and friends, but no one was able to ease my frazzled nerves.

Then one day I saw that our pastor was at the backyard neighbors home. I called her and asked her to see if he could come over and talk with me when he was done visiting with her. A while later he was at my front door. I welcomed him in, we sat in the living room and began to talk. I told him about my upcoming surgery and that I was afraid.

He asked me what was making me so nervous. I told him that I was afraid that the doctor would find cancer. My mother had died from cancer only three years earlier when I was pregnant with our first daughter. I was afraid of dying and not be able to raise our beautiful daughter, April.

His response was that that was silly. Just because my mom had cancer, didn’t mean that I would also have it. He took down my surgery date and said he’d pray for me. I still didn’t feel at ease with my upcoming surgery and struggled regularly with my nerves.

The day before I woman-1006100_640 (1)was to go to the hospital I called the church to ask if the pastor could come to the hospital. I was told that he was away on vacation and wouldn’t be able to come. That night unable to concentrate on TV I went up to take a hot bath. That didn’t help either. They laying on my bed I opened my heart to God and cried in agony. Please help me, I can’t do this alone. Instantly I felt a literal heavy weight being lifted off of me. I felt the peace that passes all understanding. I knew that God was with me and would help me through whatever was ahead.

The next morning, I went to the hospital and was happy and joking around with all of the staff. They told me I would have a Band-Aid if all was well. If there was a problem I would have a lot of gauze and tape on my stomach. Then they gave me a shot and I immediately went to sleep. It seemed like only moments later that I was trying to wake up. Everything was fuzzy. I remember asking several times how big my bandage was. Finally, I was awake enough to know that I just had a Band-Aid.

Praise God. I found out that I didn’t have cancer, but endometriosis. It’s scar tissue near and around the ovaries. This was what was causing my pain and inability to become pregnant. I was very relieved with this news. My prayer was then to thank God for being able to have one child. I was able to relax and enjoy the life we had. Then God surprised us with our daughter, Nickie, when April was seven years old.

When I was struggling the most, I forgot to pray and ask God what I should do. My faith was weak; I was trying to do it on my own. When I finally laid down on my bed and cried out to Him, He lifted my anxiety and fear, and gave me His peace. We all need to remember that no matter what our situation He is there to help and guide us.

I found this website with quotes that can help you in your daily walk.  Daily Inspirational Quotes

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